As many of you are aware, I have been breastfeeding for the past 3 years. My daughter exclusively breastfed since birth and I started introducing her to formula milk and bottle feeding on her 2nd birthday. She still breastfeed to these days, mostly for comfort – I don’t think I’m producing as much milk now.
But I guess our breastfeeding days are over. She’s old enough to still be breastfeeding, and I’m just tired from all-night nursing!
I started by having my husband putting my daughter to bed. She was tired from her daytime activities, so we gave her a good dinner, I breastfed her but made sure to keep her awake, and passed her to my husband for him to rock her to sleep. She still needed something for comfort, so she grabbed a kangaroo soft toy and cuddled it. I just kept myself ‘busy’ – in and out of the washroom – and to my amazement, she fell asleep within 10 minutes! She still woke up at 2 am and 5 am for nursing though, but that was a progress. We continued this for about a week or so.
I then kicked it up a notch by putting tamarind paste on my breasts. She was full from dinner and she had 6 oz formula milk before going to bed, so I know this won’t starve her in any way. She wanted to breastfeed when she started to feel sleepy, but she stopped as soon as she nursed, and she just laughed (thank God she laughed because I was expecting a cry) saying, ‘Mommy, it’s sour! Yucky!’ to which I responded, ‘Really? Is it sour? Oh no! No more, okay. Sour, right?’ She kept on tugging my shirt every 5 minutes, but she didn’t nurse. I heard her talking to herself, ‘Mommy don’t want Adriana. It’s okay, later mommy wash (breasts) ya. Adriana drink milk bottle okay’. It broke my heart. At that point, I just wanted to give in but I reminded myself to be strong for her own good. I assured her that I still love her – we did some puzzles, read book, look outside the window, cuddle – and then she felt asleep all on her own. She skipped her 2 am nursing, but she woke up for 5 am nursing.
We are still on the same drill of tamarind paste trick – but even better, she skipped her 5 am nursing. I don’t want to jinx saying that I’ve fully wean her, but her last feeding was almost 48 hours ago! She also started to sleep through the night, and develop a new bond with the kangaroo soft toy (I guess this becomes her comfort toy for now).
She woke up this morning and we just hugged for a full 5 minutes. I rubbed her back telling her I love her.
Alhamdulillah, so far no tears and Allah SWT has made this process easy for us. I guess I’m the one suffering from separation anxiety – I still keep on waking up every couple of hours to check on her!
Breastfeeding has been nothing but a blessing, I treasure all the bonding moment we had for the past 3 years. I really encourage breastfeeding for new mommies out there, this is one phase in life that’s truly fulfilling. It’s tiring, I’m not going to lie, but at the end of the day, this is the moment in life that you’ll cherish, insyaAllah. At least I did.
Here’s to a few of our breastfeeding memories: